I quote from Allan, because he expressed an exact replica of how i feel.

Almost verbatim.

Hence i Ctrl+C and edited ...

Its a terrible feeling. Totally disorientated for the past days, especially after the Tests,a series of unexpected events. Is it really the wake up call we need? Apparently it does little more than merely throwing us off track and leaving most, and i mean most of us feeling way down in the dumps.

i don't understand why all these are coming about. Its seriously too abrupt to be taken into. it sets me thinking a lot, wanting to know if there's a way out other than self reproaching. its totally wasted. horrible having to disclose i am not like how i seem.

i wonder why people can change in a bat of an eyelid. and so called newfound friendships could not even take the test of time( in fact a short time) to how it was said to be. Disappointment should be the word.

i make the best out of everything. i learn as much as i can.

perhaps i should say everyone was in the state of delirium, taking everything for what it seem.

i salute to those who managed and juggled well. (perhaps they should join the circus)

Should it be relationships or academically.

Did i make a right choice? Am i doing the right things? The right friends? Right attitude? This mid-years should be the most hyped-up super-fun party month where the biggest and the best happen, but i can't help but feel extremely moodless projected for the entire of July. Partied out? work stress? could it be? i don't know. All i know is i have this very real fear i don't promote. I really really really have to.

its a wonderful new start in this blog, so i do not wish to pin point on anything. it ought to have a chain effect isn't it? i guess its time to wisen up, be discreet and get on with life.

Joey
7/02/2008 11:37:00 PM